NOTE TO SELF - GROW THROUGH WHAT YOU GO THROUGH

Life doesn’t always work in our favor. Sometimes we’re thrown a few more curveballs than we can catch, but that’s the beauty of it. God didn’t give us this life just to breeze through it. We’re dealt the cards we’re given in order to learn. No one is perfect and it’s okay to have an occasional misstep. We wouldn’t be able to learn from our mistakes if we didn’t make any to begin with. 

12.25.2017-05.25.2018

Timing is everything, and I strongly believe some people have an expiration date in our lives. God puts people in our lives for a certain time and season to either teach us lessons, or help us through our rough patches. Once they served their purpose, He takes them out of our lives and puts new people in them. 

My past relationship is a good example of that. I was dating a really great guy for a year and a half who taught me a lot about myself. I thank God for that relationship because I learned how to properly love someone from it. Unfortunately, we both didn’t love ourselves enough to keep the relationship sustainable any longer. We had to break up go down separate paths to become the people we’re truly meant to be. Although the healing process was hell to get through, that time to myself helped me figure out what I wanted out of life. I was always debating my creative potential during my relationship and relied on my partner for validation. 

When you’re single all you have is yourself. You become your best motivation and source of validation. I needed that push to be alone and vulnerable to come to the realization that I’m a bad bitch who can accomplish anything. During my healing process I’ve been able to get out of my comfort zone and create this website, and do more creative work for my podcast, No Chance. I never thought writing would be the outlet I needed to fully express myself, but I’m glad I figured it out.

Life’s too short and tomorrow isn’t promised, so I told myself to do everything I want before it’s too late. I don’t want to live life wth more regrets than accomplishments, so I try to push myself to take risks on myself. It’s okay to be selfish with your life and your time. One thing I learned is that life is meant to be lived how you want, and the people in it should compliment not complete it. Stay authentic and chase your dreams fearlessly. It’s okay if you fail at first. Life is a marathon, not a sprint. Don’t lose sight of your happiness. Note to self.